So I’m learning why mindfulness is called a practice. Last week I pitched myself the idea of sitting quietly with my anxieties for three minutes a day. By exposing myself to raw reality, I hoped to unlearn my nasty habit of pretending everything is okay despite evidence to the contrary. And while I stand by… Continue reading The way you heal is up to you.
I want to journal more. I love to write, but I tend to have a hard time getting started. Journaling with someone else would motivate me, but in COVID times, it’s hard to do that in person. So I figured, why not ask someone from the internet? Actually, why not ask everyone from the internet?… Continue reading #ThoughtfulThursday
I need to change my narrative. Corny Facebook sayings don’t usually get to me, but today one did: “You will keep living the stories you tell yourself.” I think that’s really true. I’ve been telling myself that everything will hurt, that my anxiety has gotten out of hand. That might be true, but there are… Continue reading Changing my self-talk, three minutes at a time.
In 2018, I voluntarily received 19 electroconvulsive (shock) treatments at a hospital in Colorado to alleviate my depression. This is the true story of how that decision saved my life. ... One afternoon late in my twenty-third summer, I found myself sitting on a plastic couch in my psychiatrist’s office, begging him once again to… Continue reading How shock therapy saved my life.
So, it’s been a while, huh? I apologize for my absence from this blog. It’s been more than a year since I posted anything new, but I’m very happy to announce that I’m back on my bullshit, and I’m resurrecting Miss Misery. The new content will be a little different than it was before. To… Continue reading RETURN of the ZOMBIE BLOG!
Being a young grown-up is hard. Society expects you to work toward achieving myriad family, education, career, and financial goals - all at the same time. I've struggled for years to devise a system that allows me to get through the day, let alone work toward these longterm goals. After spending a painful amount of… Continue reading +10 Adulting Points
For the past three years, I've been experiencing dissociative episodes. These are periods of minutes to hours where my I claw my way through a set of unpleasant mental and physical symptoms that occur simultaneously. At its root, this is most likely a psychological phenomenon not unlike post-traumatic stress disorder: because I'm been traumatized before,… Continue reading Why I Dissociate
"I always run into the same issue when I fall down the rabbit hole of learning about schizophrenia: it scares the living hell out of me.
More than any other reason, that's because I can relate so thoroughly to its symptoms."
There are a lot of subtleties involved in growing up with a psychiatric illness that don't often get talked about. The news covers cases of severe psychosis when a violently ill person ends up in jail; the most apparent symptoms of depression (the "common cold" of mental illness) are gathering more and more attention on… Continue reading Miss Misery Mission Statement: Shatter the silence around mental illness.
As someone who has had many severe symptoms of borderline personality disorder for more than a decade, I know that there is no simple "trick" for creating easy conversation between someone who suffers from this disease and their loved ones. The illness presents many obstacles to good communication, all of which can only be overcome… Continue reading Why is it so hard to communicate with Borderline Personality Disorder?